Where am I

So, I have been wondering why I came all the way to Salem for the last 6 months only to possibly not finish the training with the outreach.  The question was posed to G-d as I understand "Him".  The answer I got was "I wanted to see if you would do it".  Much like a parent tells their child to clean their room and a while later the child asks to go play.  What does a good, attentive parent say?  "Did you clean your room yet?"  There is not much discussion of playing or popsicles or what have you, until the first order is accomplished.  Clean your room, then we will talk. 

I feel as though coming here was the clean your room from G-d, as I understand.  Kindof like "we're not negotiating or talking about anything else until you first do this". 

I have, and I will be here until the end, whether thats September 7th or November 10th. 

Though I am not equating myself to this Patriarch, I do liken this experience to Avraham offering Isaac.  Once G-d saw his heart, G-d provided another more "sensical" way.  

To the non-believer this may seem petty, akin to the wife setting her husband up for doing the "wrong" thing.  I can appreciate that.  I thought that same thing at first, even just yesterday.  But, in the framework of a good parent, one who knows the outcome and the end from the beginning, it's not petty or trite.  You stop doing things for your children you know they can do for themselves because it will make them a more independent, capable adult.  This is the way I see my Abba.

I chose the picture above because it shows the absolute abandon and fun that I see myself having with my Daddy in Heaven.  Shreaking with delight.